I just took a break.

Woah. SO. My life has been pretty fuckin' awesome.
You know that boy? He's mine. Well not really. Were just not dating.
Were um. Yeah I don't know what we are but..
I know were going to be something.<3>I just figured out that that was a heart.)

But I still have haters. But, I also have good friends now.
Friends I can trust. I hope.
Anyway. I hate when I can't be myself without some messy girls making fun
and pissing me off.

In science class. I guess since I had my head down they figured I couldn't hear them.
They were calling me a martian.
Because I said I wanted to work with aliens. Or something.
I mean who wouldn't?
but yes. & then they kept screaming April likes ____.
Yeah that guy.
Eh. Stupid.
I won't get worked up over it.

So yes Im going to keep this short but.
I think im going to create a Tumblr account.
Just thought you should know.

So I guess its been awhile since i wrote crap on here.. well um.... things have been good and bad...

So school lets see.. Not to many people are still hating on me like before. And I am making freaking friends like crazy. We did our play last weekend and some stupid person in the audience said that i had no emotion! Whatever I know I did! Besides that my grades are perfect, Gullet's class has now become fun.. but schools still overall gay! So on to the bad..

This stupid boy! Sometimes I wish he would have never even started talking to me... So he says to me

" Its cool if you just want to be friends but I'm still going to keep chasing you."
My response: "What is that supposed to mean?"
Him : "Whatever you want."
Me: "Okay whatever.. so what are you doing?" ( we were texting)
Him: "I am wondering WHY!"
Me: "huh?"
Him: "nevermind..."

So this conversation went nowhere! And it made no sense! But he's stopped talking to me like usually. He used to call me everyday. And text me right after he got out of basketball practice. I feel like I did something to make him think this. I don't even know! And I want it to be back like before I don't want to be just a FRIEND!

Just a little bit of paranoia..

So.. Life's been good... except for today. It just started being horrible come algebra of course. Here's how it went down.

So Gullet gave us a quiz today on some crap we reviewed for maybe a day. I totally forgot how to do it. But he says

" You need to remember to show your work."

So that's is exactly what i did and i went crazy multiplying and dividing. I practically filled up the whole paper on one problem. But then I realized that I messed up... yep. So I decided to skip that problem just because what the hell?? Then here comes Gullet saying:

"You just starting?"
Me: "No I messed up."

So then he grabs the paper and starts looking at it saying

" Why do you write out all the stuff? You have a calculator!"
Me: "You said write it out so I did!"

Man! That man is freaking crazy! I ended up not finishing. But watch I ace the Damn test! mhm!

Besides that me and that dude I've been talking to(him) are pretty awesome. I hope he asks me to homecoming.. Seriously! If no one asks me though I'm most definitely not going. How lame is that to go to homecoming solo dolo?? He calls me everyday. Texts me everyday. Tells me good morning EVERYDAY!.. All that sweet stuff. But I feel like there's another girl.. or maybe I'm just paranoid.
(I'm always paranoid.)
Oh.. I dont have school tomorrow! So suck on that!

Hello (: Boys and Grandma's..

So.. I really miss my grandma. She's in New Orleans and I'm here. I dont even know why i just really wanna see her and the rest of my family. Yesterday we went go see my cousins/neighbors who I pretty much grew up with. They live in baton rouge and we haven't seen them since the hurricane. ( You know its practically been 4 years now!) I miss how things used to be. I wish I could go back to the year 2004.. when everyone still lived in the same city! And you'd see/talk to your family almost everyday. I hope that me and my first cousins who are pretty close now will stay close in the future. My mum really doesn't talk to her cousins anymore. It seems like people just aren't all family family like they used to be in the good ole days...

Besides that.. boys are so confusing. One day they'll have you crying yourself to sleep and the next they'll have you smiling from ear to ear. I feel like boys aren't just satisfied with one girl they need a few more to be happy. Girls aren't like that. We want a one true love. Do boys even think about that? Do they care? I guess they were programmed like that & I guess their not all like that.

You know.. I guess I am sort of a hopeless romantic. I don't like all that mushy gushy stuff but I guess its just because I'm not used to it & my parents aren't like that. For example:
"he" told me

" Every time I close my eyes I see you"

I semi cringed. I dont know.. just too much nice. I feel like he'll say this now and the next minute he'll break my heart... But I believe in a prince charming and some perfect soul mate for everyone. So I think I am a hopeless romantic.
Whatever but on the Sims 3 I always pick hopeless romantic as my sims trait.

I Don't Ever Want to Go Back to School!

Man..I hate school. Seriously. It sucks so bad. I've never even hated school before in my whole life... but I sure do now...

So today I don't know I just had this feeling that everyone was talking about me.. well not everyone just them! The same girls who told me about him. I smiled at him in the hall. And then I just hear them say his name and I could sense that I was being talked about. I don't even know what I'm doing. I feel like I've committed some kind of crime. I had talked to him on the phone the night before and it just seems like they know everything we've talked about and just... i don't know maybe I'm being paranoid. I just feel like he's not telling me something.

I hate it so bad! Seriously why does this boy have to come with so much drama. I like him, I really do. He's so funny..very cute..and I could talk to him forever. I feel like I shouldn't care what anyone says. But it's just so confusing. I keep thinking that he's just playing me. I feel like these girls are tapping into my phone line and have some master plan to destroy me. MAN! I just don't understand..
I want some answers!

Im so efiin happy (:

So..things have really been looking up for me. I hope. Well let me see if i can explain this a little bit better.. It involves a boy. Who's a sophomore..and 16. He goes to my school and I never really noticed him (I actually thought he was a senior) but apparently he noticed me. He asked me to be his friend on myspace on Friday...and from then on we started messaging and texting, and we talked on the phone. Yes, I was so happy.

But I felt like it was way to good to be true. I felt like he's 16

he doesnt' want a 14 year old.

I felt like he says the same lines to me that he does every other girl. I was kind of scared to go to school Monday and see him. I kept thinking.. Its probably a joke. Im being punked.. ha ha.. but I dont think its a joke... I think this is the real thing...

On Monday I went to school and I just knew that something was up... These girls who are my friends (i guess) came up to me and told me

" You talking to him? He's a man whore..You shouldn't mess with him! He has a girlfriend! He's trouble.."

At that point I felt like what I had thought from the start was exactly true. He doesn't like me. Im just another girl out of the 50,000 he already has. I didn't really know what to think. I went over all of this in my head for the rest of the day. I could not concentrate.

Later that day he texted me. I figured he would. (Its like were already in a relationship or something) He's so easy to talk to.. But then I figured I'd ask him about all this crap. First I said

"Why are you so interested in me.. I dont get it."
His response: "What's not to get?"
Me: "idk Just everything."
His response: "Your beautiful( ugh.. i hate that word), smart, and fun to talk to..What are you not interested?" After that I said..

" People tell me that your some kind of man whore and that you have a girlfriend"
His response: " I am no man whore.. and i do not have a girlfriend!"

It seemed like he got pretty mad. He had already told me he hadn't had a girlfriend in like 6 months or something. I didn't know what to believe though. I want to believe him. And I think that I do...

Those girls told me that they knew he was talking to me because "he tells his girlfriend everything" Why would you tell your girlfriend you were flirting with another girl?

His so called girlfriend is a sophomore and goes to my school. I've seen her around. but it never looked like they were "together"..

But I believe him ..I think that they're just jealous bitches..

I'm being bulied! ]: Haters!

So school today was boring like it always is..and guess freaking what?? I finally got up the courage to ask all these people in my class to be friends with me on myspace. Yeah I was freaking out for the past weeks debating if I should ask them. I think Im starting to gell. But anyway...

Today in algebra we got our tests back...that everyone said was soo hard.. and im like

" We learned about bar graphs in like 5th grade. What's your beef??"

I made a B+ . Whereas everyone else had like F's and D's. But yet Gullet's all like

"Did you get this one wrong?"
Me: "Yeah"
Him:"Well why did you get it wrong?"
Me:" I didn't remember how to do it.."
Him: "That's because you didn't study! Blah Blah!"

He hates me. I just know it. Because the whole class period, Shaquoia and Ariana [my new hater] are talking, but nothing happens to them! Truth be told I think he's scared of them..

But yes Ariana hates me. Anything I do pisses that girl off. Day before yesterday I was in "her seat" and she's all

Hater :"Didn't you see me sitting there!"
Me: "Um you were sitting up there yesterday.."

So I just let her sit there to avoid crap from happening. Then her and Shaquoia high five? Seriously who does that?? Are we living in the 20th century?? Oh yeah and the whole time she was like in my face but not even looking at me when she'd talk. I was like okay..lazy eye maybe?? But then Gullet's all

" What's going on?"

Like Im sure he heard that whole thing.. and he probably enjoyed it. But then again he wasn't going to tell her anything because she'd probably jump him after school or some crap.